In this podcast interview I asked five Christians the following questions.
1. When you feel guilt, do you have trouble knowing if Jesus is judging you or if you are judging yourself?
2. At the moment, what do you think Jesus would say is strengthening your relationship with him and what is weakening it?
Listen to the interview through the streaming services below.
Whether you're a current or former Christian, I'd love to post your written answers to the interview questions, below. Email them to me at [email protected].
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Anonymous - April 2021
"I am...more in conflict with myself. I think in such situations it is important to recognize one's own mistakes and to be able to admit them to oneself." Read More
1. Since I don't believe in God, my answers will be a little different than other people's. When I feel guilt, I don't think about whether Jesus would condemn me. I am then more in conflict with myself. I think in such situations it is important to recognize one's own mistakes and to be able to admit them to oneself. You cannot undo what you have done. However, you can try to avoid such misconduct in the future. You have to try to learn from your actions and become a better person because of them.
2. I cannot give a concrete answer to this question because, as I mentioned earlier, I do not believe in God or Jesus, so there can be no change in our relationship. The only thing I have to say about this question is the thought of whether you are satisfied with yourself and how you relate to yourself. The questions that arise from this are: Whether one can live/be happy with deeds one has committed; Whether one can forgive oneself and whether one believes oneself to be a good person.
Princeton Cangé - March 2021
"We stopped talking because he wanted me to only listen to him. He and his other friends immediately condemned any exploration into different ways of living and learning." Read More
1. As a former Protestant, the judgment felt like it used to come from “on high,” but now, no longer identifying as Christian, the judgment is internal. That being said, I know that many of the values of the Protestant denomination that I grew up in have become internalized, even though I may not agree with them.
2. At the moment, many in the Christian church would say that I am “backslidden.” I believe Jesus would say that lack of communion (reading my bible, prayer) has weakened our relationship. Just like any relationship, there has to be communication, openness, and support. We stopped talking because he wanted me to only listen to him. He and his other friends immediately condemned any exploration into different ways of living and learning. So, I let the relationship go as it was no longer serving me or giving me the support that I needed.
Anonymous - March 2021
"I think Jesus would say...being open about my complexes I have about Christianity...is strengthening my relationship with him." Read More
1. I grew up as a Christian and a Baptist. Though in my teenage years I stopped going to church. For the longest time I believed that I didn't have to. I live with my family now and they are very centered in the Baptist faith. I feel a spiritual guilt living inside and outside of that faith. When I feel this guilt I feel a combination of the two. I often feel an unwillingness to move my ego or my life aside for faith. During those moments I feel like I am judging myself and maybe Jesus is judging me too. As an artist I think I focus on the negative aspects of God and only see religion or religious figures like Jesus as a final judge. This complicates my relationship with Christianity. Spiritually I am conflicted about Christianity's place in my life right now.
2. At the moment I think Jesus would say what is strengthening my relationship with him is being open about my complexes I have about Christianity. I think for right now just being able to express my reservations my doubts and fears about religion is a strength. I think Jesus would say what weakens my relationship is being hesitant to be this outspoken with my family about my wavering faith. But I'm talking about it online so here's to that!